am i dreaming? i wish.
i came home i went
upstairs to my room, here, and led on my bed, i woke up a little under an hour
ago. This means i'm up for the rest of the night. GREAT!
in under 4 hours time my alarm clock will be screaming at me
to wake up, so i can make my monotonous trek to college. Because of my 'unable
to sleep-ness' tonight, i will be tired come the afternoon, today, and likely
to come home and fall straight to sleep, and probably wake up about this time
tomorrow. This is how patterns form, not really a pattern i really want to get
today i have music for film. it's only an enrichment, but
it's my favourite thing. contrary to my enthusiasm I don't really excel in it,
anytime i get an idea, i get to do a bit of it, then the lesson is over. when
it comes to the next week i have totally lost my train of thought. however,
it's something i want to do when i am older, as a job, film music that is. i
have found a course which i can take when i leave college, 2 years. 1 year i
have to go on tour with a band, 2nd year i have to do music for films and
adverts and things, they get us known within the buisness. because more than
anything it's who you know that will get you places. for this course i need no
qualifications, just certain muscial ability's. which makes it very VERY
tempting to just drop out of college.
"i'm just a killer for your love"
my major downfall is my lazyness, it is something i have no
control over. if i have no intrest in it, i can't do it. which makes a lot of
work go straight out the window. i do try, i honestly do but my attention is so
easily diverted. in lessons i sit in envy as i watch people take notes and hand
in work. i wish i could have that skill.
media, i do like the practical, but thats about it. i don't want to
learn about the other stuff and just fall asleep. i have been woken up a fair
few times by the teacher, which is embarresing. i haven't done any proper
work (bar the advert, and i still
haven't done any written work on that yet) since the music video evaluation,
which means i am very far behind. i just cannot drive myself to do the work. i
will without a doubt fail. i want to
give it up. i've been thinking, in this last hour of maybe joining musical
preformance, seeing as they haven't really done a lot of work, so would be easy
to catch up, plus it's something i imagine i would enjoy so it would spur me on
"the death of a party, came as no surprise"
quite recently i seem to be writing quite a lot of music.
nothing ground breaking, quite the opposite. but just little ideas which i
would like to evolve into different pieces at some point. the one annoying
thing is that i have no really good programs i can layer traks down, as a
multi-track and can edit and for it to be in time, etc. a program like cubase,
but without the need of midi equipment. at the moment, i could go into my dads
music room and record there, but it's so much hassel, all i want to do i record
the basic ideas. in this last hour i have written a song on the keyboard, using
chords i have never played before. i wish i could listen to it and every other
thing i have ever written with brand new ears, ears that have never heard it
before, so i could tell what it was really like. the more you listen to
something the more you will like it, up to the point you listen to it too much,
and you hate it. with recording, for me anyway. first, if i like the sound of
something i develop it into a basic structure. and so i listen to it over to
see if it goes. if it does i record.
adding bits on here and there. by this point, you start to like it a bit. not
like "oh my gosh wow, i'm an actual genius" but just feel a tiny bit
of pride. and then listen to it a few more times, thinking about what would be
changed and what not. then different peoples opinions. but yeh so basically, by
then i know it so well i can't remember
what i thought when i had only heard it a few times. which makes it hard to
make a judgement on it. don't quite know why i said all that, i sound like a
bit of a twat though. to cut a long paragraph short, does anyone know any good
multitrack recording programs???
"i'm a country sad, i'm a ballad man"
i realise this entry is dotted with errors, but i can't be
bothered to sort them out. and if any one is still reading, i don't know why i
wrote all this, i never usually do. so sorry, nobody really wants to know all
this, do you?
am i dreaming? i wish